Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Monday, September 19, 2011
Timecheck: 6.10pm
Lying in bed, and my mind wanders off into space and into a blackhole, or a milkyway. I start to think about this thing we all call life. What is life? Is it smth we experience in the mind? What is happiness? What is sadness? What is jealousy? Who gave them these names and who defined them? What if there were no such thing as happiness or sadness or jealousy, what if the pure thought of labelling them and giving them such names, created them. And then we are all percieved to believe that feelings exist. Oh but what a shame if they didn't exist, cause after all, to feel is to live. If feelings didn't exist, would we still? Ahh well.
Moving on to smth less mind-boggling, I feel totally useless today. Use-less. Useless. I have no work, nor do i have any plans. I actually hate having no plans; having no plans means i stay home, and when i stay home all alone, i tend to think too much. On days that i am occupied however, i curse and swear when i need to get out of bed and start my day.
Wouldn't it be amazing if humans never needed sleep? I imagine all the time we'd have, and all the things, although not to the utmost potential, we'd achieve. And i wouldn't, for once, be a lazy person. I've been thinking, that the reason why i can never do all the things i want to do, relies solely on my bed and i think i need to see someone about this, it's mad.
I remember Mom once told me that being lazy, kills a person. I second that. And yet, here i am, in bed, thinking of how i am going to spend my day when it's already six fucking twenty four p.m.
Lying in bed, and my mind wanders off into space and into a blackhole, or a milkyway. I start to think about this thing we all call life. What is life? Is it smth we experience in the mind? What is happiness? What is sadness? What is jealousy? Who gave them these names and who defined them? What if there were no such thing as happiness or sadness or jealousy, what if the pure thought of labelling them and giving them such names, created them. And then we are all percieved to believe that feelings exist. Oh but what a shame if they didn't exist, cause after all, to feel is to live. If feelings didn't exist, would we still? Ahh well.
Moving on to smth less mind-boggling, I feel totally useless today. Use-less. Useless. I have no work, nor do i have any plans. I actually hate having no plans; having no plans means i stay home, and when i stay home all alone, i tend to think too much. On days that i am occupied however, i curse and swear when i need to get out of bed and start my day.
Wouldn't it be amazing if humans never needed sleep? I imagine all the time we'd have, and all the things, although not to the utmost potential, we'd achieve. And i wouldn't, for once, be a lazy person. I've been thinking, that the reason why i can never do all the things i want to do, relies solely on my bed and i think i need to see someone about this, it's mad.
I remember Mom once told me that being lazy, kills a person. I second that. And yet, here i am, in bed, thinking of how i am going to spend my day when it's already six fucking twenty four p.m.
On my way home right now, its one of the times where I am grateful for a blogger app so I can blog on the go. Went to ikah's 21st birthday at Costa sands today. That's pretty much all I did today besides going to Northpoint to get her a cake and present. This was a lazy Sunday at its best. I have Alot of lazy days actually. I wonder how my life will turn out to be having to wake up early in the morning for work in the future. Hope I can commit.
I feel like this rant was very useless today.
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I feel like this rant was very useless today.
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Sunday, September 18, 2011
I haven't been blogging much lately, perhaps this has phased out, anyway, in attempts to keep this blog alive, i shall talk about what's been going on in my life lately.
I've had the last of my exams about a week ago and am left with a Graduation project to do by October. If everything goes as planned and i don't flunk anything, i graduate with a diploma. Although i would have appreciated a Diploma by a local polytechnic(due to the fact that singapore employers can be very anal with where a person gets their dips from), i am very much satisfied with the Diploma that i am getting.
What's next for me? I have not had it written in stone, but i do hope that i get to further my studies and major in Psychology in either JCU, SIM or MDIS. I don't think i can go abroad as, as much as i hate to say it, i like it here and as many people may know me for, i don't like changes, which is a very bad flaw i know i know. If not, i may try out for Singapore Airlines as part of a cabin crew and although i have been getting support to do it, i have yet to figure out if it's the career that i want, i mean i want something i can do in the long run. But sometimes, it's good to let go of the visions we have and just do something, for the experience.
On top of that, I'm still working working at Berrylite as a server/yoghurt girl/ service staff i don't know what my position is really. I've been really trying to work my ass off so that i can afford myself a vespa. Seeing now that there are a few new staffs, i am considering getting another job and will be starting work very soon at Ztamp. Will see how juggling two jobs will turn out to be like.
These are pretty much the highlights of my life. Yes i know it's very boring and monotone but erm, yeah, that's the reality for now.
Until then, <3
I've had the last of my exams about a week ago and am left with a Graduation project to do by October. If everything goes as planned and i don't flunk anything, i graduate with a diploma. Although i would have appreciated a Diploma by a local polytechnic(due to the fact that singapore employers can be very anal with where a person gets their dips from), i am very much satisfied with the Diploma that i am getting.
What's next for me? I have not had it written in stone, but i do hope that i get to further my studies and major in Psychology in either JCU, SIM or MDIS. I don't think i can go abroad as, as much as i hate to say it, i like it here and as many people may know me for, i don't like changes, which is a very bad flaw i know i know. If not, i may try out for Singapore Airlines as part of a cabin crew and although i have been getting support to do it, i have yet to figure out if it's the career that i want, i mean i want something i can do in the long run. But sometimes, it's good to let go of the visions we have and just do something, for the experience.
On top of that, I'm still working working at Berrylite as a server/yoghurt girl/ service staff i don't know what my position is really. I've been really trying to work my ass off so that i can afford myself a vespa. Seeing now that there are a few new staffs, i am considering getting another job and will be starting work very soon at Ztamp. Will see how juggling two jobs will turn out to be like.
These are pretty much the highlights of my life. Yes i know it's very boring and monotone but erm, yeah, that's the reality for now.
Until then, <3
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